EnvyTheIgnorant.
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Ive come to the conclussion that I hate relationships. I hate love I hate that i don’t do well in relationships at all. It’s just me voluntarily trusting someone because if I don’t it’ll hurt them. And I DON’T trust. It’s not my thing, I dont even trust myself. So why would I trust someone I’m attracted to? That just makes it worse. Because if they break my Trust I’m more likely to forgive. And the fact that I dont trust them wether I tell them or not, ruins the relationship. That littler things lead me to believe the worse. Until the paranoia eats my soul. I guess people like me are just not meant to fall inlove. And on top of it, loves never been enough to bring me ease. It’s just a waste. :P
I feel like all I live off of is false securities. :P I feel very forgotton. And I dunno why I keep trying. In all honesty. I guess I feel like I have to. I just feel like I’m almost always being lied to when I hear someone tell me they miss me. “I miss you” it’s like the thing I hear to often.:/ I wish I never fucked up so I wouldn’t have to always hear “I miss you.” but fuck it.
So I realized today, that I have a very large barrier that i use to keep people out of my life. It makes it so I don’t trust you I don’t need you I don’t love you well sometimes I love them. n I just kinda talk to you whenever xD not really a big deal I don’t tell you stuff or anything. N a lot of people get stuck on that god damn barrier! xD but those who make it past. They become a part of who i am n I’ll love them no matter what xD hella.
… God dammit I hate stupid people.
If you plan on bringing any good into my life, please stay the fuck away. Because for every 1 good thing 10 bad things are gonna follow. Thank you. I’ll stay alone.
beauty-in-my-flaws asked: Don't hate yourself. You're amazing. I understand how you feel though..I hate myself too. But I don't see why you do? :c you're attractive. & you're adorable! If you ever need anyone to talk to I'm here...okay? cx <3
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